So there you are - in the power round, halfway through, and suddenly jump 6 is no where to be found. You made the wrong turn! But the distance to that oxer was perfect…damnit! where is jump 6? You finish strong and nail every distance. Didn’t make it to speed…but WOW that was an otherwise flawless ride! Too bad it was off course right!? or maybe it was the exact course you needed? That feel…that rythm…that Pace! Everything your trainer yelled at you about came together in perfect harmony... Sometimes the lessons learned in the ring can directly relate to whats true in life and it just takes an open mind to realize you’re exactly where you should be...
This couldn't related to my life more. I find myself on one path and suddenly going down another. But hey, Thats life and at the age of 30, I am finally beginning to realize that it's okay and comparing your course to another's is completely irrelevant. Some of us are thoroughbreds - grow quick, ready to run, know what drives us and we just GO! Then there are others who are the warmbloods - late bloomers, slow to start and may look and act like we know what we are doing but really have not one hell of an idea!
All I know, and all I have known, is that my love for horses predates everything I can remember growing up as a kid and I have worked 3 times harder at keeping them in my life rather than focusing on my career. I always thought I would make it in the corporate world and support my passion but, keeping my head above water to ride and own a horse of my own always held far more importance and has hindered me from climbing the corporate ladder....I have always been ‘that girl who had so much potential’ but my head was in the clouds dreaming about making into the Longines Global Championships Tour one day with a thoroughbred I rescued from the Portland Meadows racetrack for $500...Sorry dad.
I would literally leave an 8-10 hour work day and rush to the barn to help groom horses, clean the barn or catch ride horses to finance my own addiction for more years than I can even count. I was grooming at the shows and paying my own way to every competition. By the time I was a teenager, I was creating my own resumes and going to barns asking about their working student programs and proving myself as a qualified employee for their facility. I always did my research and found trainers who I knew were going to teach me the most valuable information. We had to move a lot for my dad's job so this gave me some of the most incredible opportunities to ride with different trainers! I never got paid, But the lessons and experience in return were more valuable to me.
In Fact, Upon moving to Oregon I had an ultimate dream of riding under an Olympic rider. I knew we couldn't afford the program so, I wrote him a letter explaining my goals as a rider and what I can offer as a groom and working student during the show season in return for lessons. He accepted and I had some of the most eye opening experiences while traveling and learning from someone so incredibly successful.
Now that I am older, I find the same work ethic resonating within my adult life. Although, with me, nothing is ever organic when it comes to a career outside of horses. My desire to move up on the corporate ladder was always overshadowed by my passion to maintain an equestrian lifestyle. And let's be honest, once you have the career to afford it, you sacrifice time! Working hard is easy…but working SMART is where I seem to always fall short. I knew there had to be a way to incorporate these animals in my career.
After so much fight, I am finally after all this time sacrificing it all to focus completely on my goals to live a horsey dream to open my own equestrian boutique. And well, it wouldn't be in true Cami fashion if I didn't do EVERYTHING at once and completely overwhelm myself with tasks and finances....so hey why not take a loan out and import my own Grand Prix prospect from Europe (OFF VIDEO) simultaneously? Welcome to my crazy world and passionate journey to live life for what is worth.
I may go off course....I might miss jump 6 about 6 more times! But, I'm finally finding my purpose and realizing life is far too short to live behind a desk and ponder about the "what ifs" and regret never trying. Enjoy following my ups, my downs, and my emotional banters about what happens when you start your own business on a budget. I Hope to inspire you all to reach for your dreams and never let anyone tell you it isn't possible! Cheers to being off course and looking damn good walking out to take on the next.